Total engagement

The thing about living as a student in the UK is that you enter a whole different culture. I feel like a general trend i keep seeing in university students is that they have this external sense of courage and purpose, but its compounded with this weird sense that they know how the world works and where they belong in it. It’s as if university students has to have this narration of why they are there, studying what they are studying and what they will be. How can you justify going 9k pounds in debt every year if you don’t have a plan? This isn’t to dismiss their efforts as being silly. I’m just constantly reminded how university students are just as sheltered and confused as when we were in secondary school.

I am admittedly confused with life but thats fine because i think it takes a confused person to find out some amazing truths. I’m excited to meet my university friends in the future after they’ve had the rug pull from under their feet because i think that is when they will realise their full potential!

Last summer was a confusing period for me. My mind had enough with all the unnecessary stresses that comes with being a student so i was full bent on this notion of ‘being  completely present’. I disliked how noisy life can be. Theres just a bombardment of stimulus in day to day life that it can be hard to completely engage with whats really in front of you. It’s one of the big reasons why I stopped blogging or carrying a phone.

I honestly think being completely present is the most addicting feeling in the world but talking about being present always presents itself as a subjective matter. A lot of people don’t  understand what it means to be completely present because maybe because they don’t know it any other way, or maybe they forgot how it felt. If i had to put it to words, i’d say It’s like looking through the eyes of a child.

I think this post is long enough so the next post will be about some of the overarching experiences i’ve had last summer. Watch this space.




To Zanarkand

You know what i really like? Orchestras. It seems so fun to just travel around the world playing music in a huge group with like minded people. I think i’ll add ‘frequenting orchestra concerts’ into my bucket-list.

I relistened to this song 3 days ago and remembered how i always wanted to learn it last year but never had the time because of my busy schedule. So i did. Since i have a lot of time on my hands i figured i might as well learn a new song and i tell you, i’ve become very rusty on the guitar after such a long time of not holding a guitar. It did felt nice though to start playing again. It feels as though i haven’t done anything mentally creative for so long. During the entire last year it was like my mind was stuck in a sardine can with a pile of books and not allowed out to play. I wanna let my mind run free again.

sorry about my mistakes. creativity and guitarmanship are two separate things

Oh, speaking of creativity, I’m rereading The chronicles of Narnia (my all time favorite series of book.) I just finished the first book- ‘The magician’s nephew’ which is probably one of my three top Narnia books because it talks about the creation of Narnia, the stars, Archenland and all the magical beings inhabiting it.

Next, book is ‘the lion the witch and the wardrobe’ which is the one everyone knows about. I think that movie kind of sucked because the portrayal of Narnia was very bleak to me. My picture of Narnia is 10 times more vivid and wonderful. The second movie was alright but the third movie, was amazing. Maybe because the third movie ‘the voyage of the dawn treader’ (fourth in the series of books) is my second favorite book.

I’ll go to sleep now. I’ve got a busy day of, oh wait, i have no plans tomorrow.