Everyone is a little bit racist

09Nov09

You probably don’t know this but i kind of support racism. I well know how many have been discriminated due to their race and skin color and i agree as much as you do that the world would probably be a better off place without them but to eradicate racism in my opinion is well… stupid.

We have in our head this vision of a world without racism where everyone has equal rights and opportunities and i agree, that does sound like something great but only in theory. In theory communism is the very definition of utopia but every single time someone tries adopt socialism into their country, it never works out cos it just goes against human nature.

In contrast, we are trying to do just that when we say we’re trying to create a world without racism. In practice, its just not something we can achieve just like many have tried with communism but do they stop? no.

Seriously, it’d be ignorant to think that everyone is colorblind. Don’t get me wrong, i give the green light for racism but everything in moderation you know. Everyone makes judgments based on race. Not big judgments like who you buy your newspaper from or who to hire but little judgments like thinking Indians are cheap or thinking how malays aren’t very productive. And as unethical as racist jokes are, theyre simply funny because theyre based on truth.

If it weren’t for racism we’d lose sight of our own heritage and background and our culture and tradition would simply dilute in the modern world. Take pain for instance, in a perfect world we wouldnt have to endure pain but would you really want that? Like Claine from ‘heroes’ said, if you can’t feel pain then how do you know youre actually living? Sometimes i don’t even think i am racist which meaning has begun to grow vague. To be accurate, im not a fan of racism. Im simply a person who doesn’t believe being ignorant of the truth will make this a more better place.

Simply the idea of utopia is nonsense if you ask me. sometimes it takes a little pinch of salt to really bring out the best in something.

-vuxpyra//

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Derp wills it

25Oct09

So im sitting here waiting for the latest episode of Shippuuden to finish downloading and what strikes me is that things like these are the high points to my day. I can have a pretty awesome day here, chilling, drinking coffee at a cafe or cruising around town with my friends but overall, the thing i anticipate the most is ‘has my download finished downloading?’

wow, coincidence. it just did 5 seconds ago.

Okay, i’m back and that was a great episode. So much so that the rest of today will simply be dull by comparison. It’s not a question of how boring my day was. It’s a given that my day has been quite boring but ‘ how awesome was the latest episode of bleach or shippuuden. All in all i just want to live a life outside the life im living.

I have gone through plan A, B, C, D, E and havent even made a choice. Lets outline them properly shall we?

PLAN A

Staying in SMSA

*buzzerrrr*

lets move on.

PLAN B

Since i don’t wanna remain in SMSA, i decided i would transfer to BSB and finish off my A levels there. I asked my ‘dad’ if he’d support my decision if i transferred to JIS and not surprisingly he blew me off like nothing. PLAN B was out of the question. Should’ve known my dad would do that to me.

PLAN C

I don’t really mind where i go really as long as it’s out of KB so i decided why not just transfer to BSB either way and go to whatever school i may end up at. I’d either have to live in a boarding house or live w relatives. The thing about living w your relatives is you burden them especially if you go to different school as their kids and i do not know any of my cousins going to any school with a sixth form institute. If i would rent a place, i really need to think about transport cos the thing is im 17 so i cant(shouldn’t) drive till late next year so that’s a bust.

PLAN D

Going to Japan. This is a pending plan cos the idea is me and my goood friend Adri are planning to try out for the Japanese Scholarship to study in Japan. Studying in Japan would be the most wickedest thing ever and though i’d need to learn how to speak japanese, it seems like it’ll all be worth it. I mean  JA-FREAKIN-PAN here.

PLAN E

shocker isnt it?

Going to UK. So when i asked my mum about transferring, she didn’t just gave me the green light but rather the golden shining light. She offered me to study in UK. So you’re thinking  ‘why is this plan E? why you stupid?’ well okay i don’t know i’ve just never been quite fond of UK so i was thinking of trying to make it work here in Brunei before doing something rash like move out of the country. However i’ve been trying and it seems like a lost cause if things go the way they are so heck, UK doesn’t seem like such a bad place after a lot of thinking.

Although my mum tell me this is confirmed, i still say UK is a pending plan. I don’t want to get my hopes to high and until then i’m still open to other plans as to how to go about life.

-vuxpyra//

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Katurday?

25Oct09

Just over 4 weeks old and are rascals i tell ya!

Has it really been 4 weeks since Munii gave birth? well, Munii has starting meowing meaning shes starting her cycle again so i have to believe so.

Bottom left is Ren and bottom right is Stimpy. Yes you’ve got that right, Ren & Stimpy bitchaz. You know how in many TV shows theres always a duo that sticks together all the time? thats Ren and Stimpy. Lil Ren is the more cautious one whereas Stimpy there is usually the one who does all the dirty work like escaping and occupying mum. That big eyes ball top right is Ora. No it has nothing to do w its spiritual energy or any of that but its something i derived out of ‘Orly’ as in the ‘o-rly owl’

yes, rly!

Yea, its the eyes. I mean little Ora has pretty big eyes look at them! The little bun also tends to just sit there with its head up high and just stare at things like an owl. But seriously, i wanted to name it ‘o rly cat’ but that would just be a hassle to pronounce every time. The white furball i havent actually named but i’ve been thinking of naming it Mona. Just for the sake of it going hand in hand w Munii ^.^Mona is by far the most manja est of the litter.

-vupyra//

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confined by conformity

13Oct09

So you know what has been really been occupying me lately? no its not games or TV or any of those materialistic things.

Its life.

I might’ve said this before but back in secondary, life was never this difficult.. in the sense that things were always set in front of you. It was a given that you would take the PMB exam and O level exam and your goal was just an armsreach away. All we need to worry about was getting good grades and not doing drugs.

Going into sixth form, all that ‘as long as i know my ambition and strive for it’ confidence diminishes and you realise life isn’t really that simple. The thing about the way things are is that we Bruneians, we think in a very ‘Bruneian’ way and we have this protocol for everything including the educational system.

We grow up, we take our PMBs, O levels, A levels and if youre lucky you get a scholarship and if youre unlucky you stay in Brunei. Maybe get a job completely unrelated to your dreams, then realise how important money is and then just continue working, going through just a handful of partners before settling down and then maybe get married before even reaching 30. Then you’ll become a pretty middle-class family and have loads of children and send them to government school and one day telling them that sometimes dreams arent as important as we think. No offense but most people pretty much becomes their own parents really. Maybe not even, considering the increasing divorce rate in Brunei.

What im heading for is, its all very generic. We base all our hopes and dreams on our education and scholarships but thats a really heavy gamble i think and it really leaves a small window for people to get through to. Kind of unfair if you ask me because the common man will not be able to get straight As and get a scholarship and they will then be forced to continue the Bruneian way of life of being a tool for the oil company instead of an inspiration of dreams(okay that was totally uncalled for).

..or become a servant for the government.

Probably only a small percentage of the population actually reach their ambition and i quite doubt it simply takes textbook learning to reach it. This is exactly what I think this is the root of all my problems. I was never one to give much of a damn about getting distinctions and getting As til this year when i realised that unlike O levels, if i don’t do well in my A levels il pretty much hit a dead end.. BUT AHA

I figured the only way to avoid the pitfalls of our educational system was simply to avoid it. Yes, the idea is to retract yourself from the educational system entirely if possible and thus you wont have to conform to the very dull status quo of our Bruneian educational system. I know this is a crazy idea but that’s just what i need. I just need a big change right now and to take charge of my life and this is by far the best plan i have so far came up with. il explain myself in the next post.

Don’t get me wrong, im proud being a Bruneian its just that i cannot, i repeat cannot achieve my ambitions if i stay here.

P.S: il post pics of kittens after they hit 4 weeks.

-vuxpyra//

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This is life, pain is just simple compromise.

25Sep09

me in 4 weeks, except i have a penis.

OH NO, my exam is in a month. i haven’t studied squat. Actually lets not get too far ahead of ourselves. I haven’t even done my holiday revision and homework and My AS exam is like in a month time. I’ve got to study man and i really mean it this time.

Okay, as much as i tried, everything up there ^, fake, to a certain extent. i cant hype myself up like i want to be. I still don’t care even though im trying but i bet i will in a few weeks time and hence, be doing my yearly last minute studying.

On a side note, Munii, my adorable cat, she gave birth on the 23rd! i’ve got 4 new kittens waiting to get spoiled silly. You probably figured that out already from the picture or well, my twitter (follow me if you haven’t).

I’ll post pictures soon. ciao

-vuxpyra//

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FOAR EVERYWUN FRUM FAHMII AN FAMILY

22Sep09

from oldest to youngest L-R

Wow, time sure flies quickly these days huh? Its Hari Raya already and my AS exams are right around the corner. Thats kind of freaky you know? But on the other hand, i’m not really worried about school anymore. My whole concept of life has pretty much changed recently. No, i didnt join any cult or anything.

You know what movie i watched recently? 17 again.

yeah, took me awhile to watch it didn’t it? im not gonna comment on how hot Zac Efron is(everyone else already did) or how mediocre the story was(eventhough it is) but there was this one line in the movie i loved.

When we’re young, everything seems like the end of the world but honestly, it’s simply the beginning

Lets be honest here, i like you all, im planning a coup de etat on the government and im trying to find some followers. Okay, i wasn’t being honest there and well, maaf zahir dan batin. That was supposed to be the mood lightener before i tell you I’m planning on leaving SMSA before i take my A levels. okay, there i said it. I plan on leaving SMSA soon and no regrets at all. I just dont see it as a milestone worth remembering in my life and i wanna start over again. Yes, i decided i wanna start preu1 all over again :D

you guys might think im crazy and kind of stupid for wasting one whole year just because i dont think its worth it but a-ha, thats where the second saying comes into play. The other day i was watching disney channel and ‘cars’ was on. I love that movie(i love all pixar disney movies FYI) and i love the whole moral of the story which went something like..

Sometimes you need to slow down from life to start and enjoy the things around you

I guess i just wanna stop and stare at the flowers now cos honestly, whats the big rush in life?

P.S: its awesome having a professional photographer as an older sister sometimes.

-vuxpyra//

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baby Cerberus

17Sep09

So as you may know, KB is relatively small. You can(if you’re willing enough) bike from one end of KB to the other in say an hour to an hour half. Anyway, i usually walk along this road when i wanna go to KB’s Beverly hills area you see and truth be told, i usually go there late at night. So its a straight road from my housing area to that housing area you see. Quite close its a mere point A to point B kind of route but then, its not that simple.

You see theres this house on the way and well, it has a dog. Okay thats kind of a huge understatement. Let me put it this way, that house has a mother-effing demon crack shit bitch ass dog! I mean seriously, i think its the bastard child of the devil’s bitch- Cerberus and freaking Gene Simmons.

yes, my mum’s a 3 headed bitch. how bout yours?

I swear i could feel the vein in my forehead bulging w my heart beat every time i see it and heck, i’ve flipped off that dog every time i get away from it. So because of that, i have this habit of taking a longer route where i have to use a parallel road so i avoid that particular house (and a few other houses w noisy dogs) when i decide to walk but when i use a bike, i just pedal like hell whenever i’m close to it and turn on my IPod to full volume which is quite effective i might say. everything is good.

So these past few months i’ve been noticing that baby Cerberus is never around anymore. Whenever i expect to hear to raging devil howls echoing in the background of ‘i kissed a girl’ playing in my player, all i could hear is my brain slowly turning to mush as the all 80 decibals of katy perry blasts through my ear drums.

So you’re thinking..”isn’t that good?”

well yeahh it is but i don’t know. It’s just like how Jerry hates Tom and Tom hates Jerry but then whenever the other gets caught up w something or someone else, they realise how much they actually love each other. okay maybe love is not the correct word… but you get what i mean.

love hate situation

I guess its a cat and mouse chase situation going on between me and baby Cerberus. When i realised he’s been missing for quite awhile i got pretty worried actually. I was quite scared that maybe the owners put him to ’sleep’ or something but i tried not to think of it. However everytime i pass the house, i’d always glance over thinking its still there. Force of habit i guess.

Well, last week baby Cerberus came back! I don’t know from where exactly but who cares. Don’t get me wrong, i still hate that stupid dog to the very core but somewhere deep deep down, i’m glad its safe. I guess baby Cerberus is one of the little things that puts some variety into my life you know. I can see more Tom and Jerry situations to come. Welcome back Baby Cerberus :D

-vuxpyra//

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anything goes now

14Sep09

I dont know what to say…

but the thing at the top of my head right now is how i quite hate the pussycat dolls. huhh kind of weird to start of like that. I try not to bitch about stuff eventhough this is a blog cos i dont believe in the..

this is my blog so leave, press the little X if you planning on trollin or spamming!

..concept cos seriously, this is the internet. Its like posting your writings on a local bulletin board or newspaper so thats why i try not to be a douche fag. I mean you could simply privatise your blog or keep your journal in a folder in your computer. okay lol, i think im being a total fag right now to THEM.

Shit, i never used to use lol you know. i dont know how but it somehow slipped into my vocabulary. maybe its because of the character limit in twitter or maybe its because ive been a regular at 4chan these past few months but its starting to creep me out. i used to think lol sounded quite fake and stupid. You might probably think i sound fake and stupid now but its one of those grass is actually quite greener at the other side kind of situations. LOL!

This meme actually did make me lol the fuck out of myself. Im not usually into the yo dawg meme cos most of them are so lame they dont tickle my funny bone even the slightest bit but i love this one. awesome stuff.

so its 10.30am already and i havent slept last night;

i forgot to niat so this is the first time this month i prematurely broke my fast;

i lost my voice after keraokeing last thursday at ayens and GH:WT ing at faris’s place just now and;

its holiday and im SOO GLAD! il be back here soon.

-vuxpyra//

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happy ending happy ending?

21Aug09

So alot of things broke down recently. I know this is getting repetitive but i have the urge to study now. I was choosen to go to the MOE best student award ceremony for AAC, which is really last minute done if you ask me.

Anyway, being in that room with all those scholarship students going to Scotland and England and America and Australia, it made me feel insignificant. or to be more exact, made me feel like a retard. Which is why i wanna seriously study. Its puasa so i should hang out less at the canteen area and people are leaving SMSA so i should have for time to concentrate.

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Oh, today i got a text message! it says..

Congratulations! Ur Mobile number had won a 2nd prize winner of US$350,000 FROM PAMCNS drawn last August 10,2009.NCR/DTI permit/01048 callusnow!im’ms,SUSAN M.ALINTAJAN or call+639069001510

YES! i won big time baybee. Okay okay, im not that gullible. Well  i once believed those ‘you are the 999,999,999 th visitor’ ads but i learned my lesson. It seems im the lucky few who these mainland chinese scammers or whatever have targetted.

What gave it away?

• foreign number,     i never trust foreign numbers.
• writing errors,        My little brother can write better english. ‘Ur Mobile number had won a 2nd prize winner‘ okay, so i won a winner did i?
• excess baggage,     ‘NCR/DTI permit/01048′ ? this wont make the text more believable
• common sense,      Susan is probably one of the most common name used by spambots and scammers. haha

It really seems quite annoyying how we aren’t able to do anything about this since we cant prosecute outsider people when theyre hiding in their home country.

Ah well, as long as everyone knows these things are scams then it doesnt matter. its coo’.. its coo’ aight

-Vuxpyra//

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Facebook not top dog anymore

16Aug09

Alot of people are moving away from facebook these days and hanging out on twitter. Facebook is getting pretty boring. I dont know why but theres nothing there that interests me anymore. My best hunch is because im more into my twitter now but i was getting sick of my facebook well before i got into twitter so im guessing its because the novelty wore off already.

im still on facebook by the way. just not as often.

-vuxpyra//

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